hope i'm not fooled by you

i think there's no blogger like me to post so many in 1 day. anyway, if u ppl do haf msn messenger u might find the title in my nick. n well, u ppl might wan to ask me...wad's with the nick!? ya chris? well, hope u can get the answer from here.

well, for me i think i'm a person who can trust frens easily...dunno wad u guys think. anyway, if my frens tell me anything, i will really go n believe it cos i think there's no reason for them to tell me sth but not the truth...it doesnt make sense rite? but when i think back bout it...it does happen! i have been fooled before. why does a fren who seems to be close to you tell u lies? i couldnt get the answer til now. mebe they dun treat me as fren? or they think i dun haf to know much bout them? or i'm not a good fren indeed? but for me, i take friendship as sth very important in my life. i know i do not have a lot of frens but i'm close wif most of my frens. i always try my best to help every of my frens as long as i can do it, at least that's wad i think. helpin each other, sharing the feeling...tat's how i define friendship. but i understand that not every1 think the same as i do. that's why i always get hurt by fren...yea it's really hurt but i wont blame them cos different ppl have different thoughts and i know i cant expect ppl to tell me everything in their lives!! but these do make me feel insecure in friendship.

anyway, back to my topic. i'm being very honest here guys, i really believe whatever u guys told me and i really appreciate that but deep in my heart...i can find the doubt inside it. i always ask myself...is it true wad he said? could he be telling lies? but guys, the conclusion is still..i believe i really do! i find no reason for me to not trusting u all when u all actually trusted me but i still hope that i'm not fooled by any1 of u. hope u wont have any hard feeling about what i said. cos i'm really trying to be honest. remember this is my secret room. all these are really how i feel!

hope u guys can get the answer here...if got anything to tell me, can leave the comment or chat wif me "privately". haha! it's getting late oledi. guess it's time for me to sleep.... nitez!