still not liking gynae

oh man...still dun think tat i'll like gynae. mebe just the wrong time of the year i have to do this run, or i'm just not interested in it at all. on top of tat...need to do 4 presentations summore. makin me not able to like it. goin to have my 1st presentation tmr. not tat i've never done anything like this before, and just 5 mins presentation. shudnt be too hard. but still kinda worry bout it after all. just cos...i'm not a person who can talk well :P oh well..just have to cope wif that i guess

not having a real busy day today actually. but somehow i got a headache from the day. probably cos of all the microbiology stuff tat one of the prof talked bout in the lecture make me crazee. not a very good day for me. this morning as well, had a session wif SANDS (stillbirth and neonatal death support group) ppl to tell us wad they do for the family who had stillbirth or neonatal death. one of the thing they do to support is send card to the family every year for the "anniversary" during the day when the baby passed away. i'm not sure is it the cultural difference or wad, i dun think chinese will wan that to happen. cos tat will just remind them of the "pain" they have been thro year after year and we tend to leave it behind and try not to remember too much bout it. but here, they still treat the baby as part of the family and talk about it constantly, have pic in the house n stuff. mebe just diff coping mechanism. but it's real sad to have neonatal death...when u dun even haf a chance to have a close look at the baby before they passed away. how sad. after 40 weeks of pregnancy. same for the miscarriages.

tmr is not goin to be any better for me...to have presentation at 9 and having to rush for the family planning clinic right after that..and stay there for whole day. anyway..will see how it goes :)