confuse~!

haven been blogging since i come back to kl. i got no idea whether i shud continue wif this or not..cos i wanted to write my feelings and thought down but dowan too many ppl know bout it. well, why r u blogging? ppl asked. tat's why...i'm confused
confusion not onli refer to someone. everyone will experience it, just the matter of time.
lots of thing happen in this period of time...i went to mount kk which is unsuccessful, went to raub n visit the org asli..quite meaningful and memoriable experience. after tat? classes started.
now i'm watching american idol which i've just downloaded and bloggin at the same time. looking at the judges criticising the ppl tat chosen by themselves, i guess they are confused as well. today isnt a good day for some of the ppl and my feeling just being brought up and down by the others. i just cant forget wad happend and be happy when the rest are sad. i'm actually bothered by the same prob tat i have experienced before. all sorts of frenship thingy although i've tried my best to minimise the effect. maybe i do care bout them :D this is something that cant be changed.no matter they like it or not. i just have to do my part n do wad i think is right. some ppl might dun like it, but i shud just continue to care. some ppl think it'll onli be great if u r being love but actually lovin, caring and giving someone wad u can as a fren or wadsoever is a great thing as well. and it's actually better than being loved. u r blessed to have the oppurtunity to love when some other ppl dun even haf the chance to. so appreciate it. some ppl oso think tat u dun haf to say much thing bout ur feeling to the close 1 but actually ppl will appreciate it more than u think if u express ur feeling to the close one rather than u ignore the care from them sometimes and be close wif the rest. it can be really hurt. =P